Like the saying goes, what goes up, must come down. I just wish it did not have to apply to my life all the time. I have always tried to be optimistic, but who was I trying to kid? My life was destined to be one disaster after another, and until I finally made the decision to change my lifestyle in every single way, things would never be any different.
In the meantime, my life continued to revolve around a circle of ups and downs, existing mainly of downs. How could I have been so oblivious to my situation? Why didn’t I have the strength to just stop, take a good look at my life, and realize what was causing such havoc?
I was a prisoner of heroin by my own choice. I was locked up, both mentally, and physically. I often wondered if there was a key somewhere out there, that one day, would be turned to set me free. I just had not realized yet, that I was the holder of that key.